I Looked at the Pieces and Still I Wonder Why (2013/2015)
fixed-media electronics, stereo / video
In looking back at our memories, we are left to reassemble the pieces and evaluate the moments. Often times the results leave us uneasy as we consider how the circumstances and outcomes could have been different. As we resurrect these moments, however, we often fight to reshape them as a way of coming to terms with the power that they hold over us. I Looked at the Pieces and Still I Wonder Why is an exploration of these ideas. Produced from a single wind chime sample, it fragments and reshapes the sound into a complete transformation of the original sample. As the work reaches its peak, the sounds violently converge and then fray away from one another until a sudden drop-off that reveals the original sample. Left in shock, this moment of clarity melts into itself as we suppress the reality of the moment and carefully reform the memory. The sound is paired with images which have been created through the breakdown of the hexadecimal code. No color corrections or alterations have been made following the code deterioration.
The musical work was premiered as part of a dance collaboration with choreographer Matt Melendez in the Handel Performing Arts Center in Hartford, CT on March 7 & 8, 2014
The video work was premiered during the Roodkapje Radicals #1 Festival in Rotterdam, The Netherlands on April 17, 2015.
The work was also presented during the 2014 New York City Electroacoustic Music Festival in the Underground Theater at the Abrons Art Center in NYC and during the Sound | Place exhibition in 2015 at Goldsmiths College in London.